Still Here — In the Unexpected

It has been nearly a month since my last post. While God was writing a story in my heart I was silent here. His faithfulness has and is carrying me on a roller coaster ride. In December I became aware of some potential job cuts within my school district. It was disheartening to consider a job loss or a job change. I really enjoy my current position as a school counselor for students in grades 5-8. Rollercoaster Upside Down! Nonetheless I was stirred to consider that He could be using this circumstance to direct me elsewhere; to a place that I would not have even considered without this situation. I began to explore all sorts of things; openings at area schools, the AEA, online education services, and local colleges & universities. I also considered selling my home and downsizing. Do I really need this specific home? Nope. Would I miss it – absolutely! Do I need it? Nope. With very mixed feelings from sadness to anger to a little excitement I ventured.

The thoughts of a position at Waldorf University intrigued and excited me, the adventure of selling my home and being able to personalize another house to become my home also stirred some thoughts and dreams. Rollercoaster Up! Doors closed on a couple of houses I was considering and a job opportunity at Waldorf. Rollercoaster Down!

In January, I learned of the seriousness of the changes at the school. “Many people will lose their jobs.” Ugh. Rollercoaster Down! My mind raced with thoughts. Several weeks earlier I had learned of an opening at an area school in which I would be qualified to fulfill. For a variety of reasons I was not enthused initially. With some promptings by His Spirit about surrender, my heart was changing. As I considered the unknown future how could I not want to be where He wanted me to be to serve others with gifts and skills he has and would give me. Although it might not be “I want” it could be what He wants. Hmm. Which would be best?! Roller coaster twist, Rollercoaster turn!

I applied, I interviewed. In that surrender, my heart was charged with some excitement. As learned more about the school and had the interview I was very interested and hopeful that God might take me on an adventure here. Rollercoaster Up! Up! Up! The anticipation and waiting was a struggle wondering about this opportunity while also wondering what may result with my current position. God continued to speak reminders of his faithfulness. One particular morning I was listening to a song on the radio and my ears perked up to a lyric; “In the waiting the God who is never late is working all things out.”

Yes I Will by Vertical Worship

I count on one thing
The same God that never fails
Will not fail me now
You won’t fail me now
In the waiting
The same God who’s never late
Is working all things out
You’re working all things out

Yes I will, lift You high in the lowest valley
Yes I will, bless Your name
Oh, yes I will, sing for joy when my heart is heavy
All my days, oh yes I willI count on one thing
The same God that never fails
Will not fail me now
You won’t fail me now
In the waiting
The same God who’s never late
Is working all things out
Is working all things out

Oh, yes I will, lift You high in the lowest valley
Yes I will, bless Your name
Oh, yes I will, sing for joy when my heart is heavy
For all my days, oh yes I will
For all my days, oh yes, I willAnd I choose to praise
To glorify, glorify…